Some days life just likes to spice it up a bit and throw a surprise your way. These little surprises are never quite what you expected and somehow even if you had an inkling they were coming - they still can hit you like a wave of happiness/joy or knock you down like a ton of bricks. Life's little surprises aren't always good. It's times like these when your not exactly sure what to feel, or maybe you don't even know how to feel.
Today I had one of those surprises that hits you like a ton of bricks, even though I knew it would happen at some point. I'm not sure how I'm supposed to feel. So I decided to just let myself feel - let the emotions take their course. Naturally, I tried to rationalize some and tell myself it will be ok. And it will - it always is. I was a bum today, unsure of how to feel, how to react, or how to behave. I guess that's ok. It's all part of growing up. New experiences, new emotions. In a way you could say I'm lucky to have the opportunity to feel this and experience this - whatever it is.
It's days like these when I wish my best friends were right here to sit with me and just be together. Words don't necessarily need to be shared, but just being together. Knowing that other person is there and doesn't care that I don't know how to feel, or act.
Once again thank you to the technology of the cell phone - friends and family are just a fingertip away.
Here's to life's little surprises and me growing up just a little bit more today.
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