morning

It's morning. Things are always better in the morning.
A part of me feels guilty or like I was begging for sympathy in my previous post. That's not the situation. There's a part of me that wants to express the difficulty that is my life right now, because sometimes I feel like I sugar coat it. It's stress and pressure. We (medical students) place a lot of weight on this exam (probably a little too much in the big scheme of things). But it is the first step in obtaining our license to be able to practice medicine. This is the exam that will help determine what field we may be able to go into and this is the exam that could get me back to California. Obviously, I'm nervous. 2 years of information being crammed into my brain in 34 days.

But at the end of the day, everyday - I do realize how lucky and blessed I am to be here. I asked for this, heck I was begging for it - just get me into medical school. This is what I wanted and here I am. So even in light of my last post, I am lucky and blessed (that doesn't stop me from feeling like crap sometimes or complaining). But, I'm young, with my whole life in front of me and I have a wonderful family and friends and am doing exactly what I want to be doing. I could not ask for more.