So...what have I been up to, since I haven't been blogging. Well, I have been working on becoming a grown up. You would think that since I'm already 26 years old and a doctor that I should already be a grown up. I mean in the very near future, patient's lives will be resting in my hands and yet I still consider myself more of a kid than an adult. When you stay in school as long as I have been in school - it makes it a little harder to feel like an adult. Granted 3rd year of medical school felt like a real job, without many days off or summer vacation. The difference I guess was that in the 3rd year of medical school you know it's only for a year. You just have to survive the year of a hard job that has tests that you must pass, after that 4th year rolls around and well....4th year is cake.
But one year that is sort of like a real job doesn't really count. It's a year where I still had to study after work, still had to take tests, and didn't get paid. The real world hits when suddenly I realized how much money I owe for my schooling and I have to somehow find a way to make payments on my loans while in residency. It also came crashing down that maybe I'm an adult, because I tried to get a mortgage for the condo in Arizona. Yes I know, I'm already in debt over my head and I'm about to double it by taking out a mortgage? My first real investment, perhaps? Let's hope it pans out. So there was a lot of financial learning on my part recently. Some new vocab that goes along with buying real estate. Talking with my Dad about saving and trying to stay within my budget on my new salary. I'll finally be on my own for once, standing on my own 2 feet. There's been so much busy work over the past couple of weeks just trying to get everything in order, in terms of the condo, getting insurance quotes, trying to figure out the logistics of moving, where to buy furniture, etc. Some of it fun stuff, some of it not.
I know there are many people my age who are married and have kids and are much more like a real grown up compared to me. Trust me I know that. Look at some of my good high school friends. Most are married and many are expecting. Let me tell you that makes me feel like I've been standing still. While in med school, it seems like everyone else's lives kept moving. I mean seriously - my friends are about to start their own little families - the next generation. Not I. Nope I'm working on getting my first job. It's hard at times to feel that my wheels are turning, but I'm not going anywhere! I will admit that finally though I do feel like I've finally made some progress with graduation, getting Penny, and buying a place. It's something. I really haven't been standing completely still for the past 4 years. Everyone says it'll be worth it and in all honesty right now I'm happy with where I'm at. I can't say that has always been true, but right now it is (it probably won't be so true, come Christmas time, which I will likely be spending in the hospital this year). I'll make it there eventually - just not yet. If you ask me I have a lot of living left to do. I've missed out on some good years while studying away in medical school in a small town with nothing to do.
Let's just say I have some high hopes for Tucson and even though I am about to embark on what will most certainly be the hardest year of my life - I sure hope it's also one of the most fun!
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