Deja vu - that's the feeling I have about this year. It's taken me 3 times, but I now recognize the pattern. Here I am in my 3rd year on the brink of rest of my life. I've stood here 2 other times - as a junior in highschool and in college. Again I am realizing that after this year I have one year left, before I move onto the rest of my life. In high school that meant applying for college, anxiously awaiting with my fingers crossed for acceptance letters.
Flash forward 4 years - there I was as a junior at Trinity, compulsively checking my email for med school interview opportunities and daily checking my mailbox hoping for the infamous thick envelope deciding where I would spend my next 4 yrs.
Flash forward 4 years again realizing that hopefully I have 1 year left on the east coast before I once again move onto the rest of my life. Yes - I've changed, I've grown, and I've learned. The funny thing is that the emotions are still the same. Excited yet scared. Wanting to explore my surroundings that much more, because I only have 1 year left. Knowing that I will be leaving my friends here for another one of life's great adventures. We will always be connected by medical school. As I am connected to my childhood friends from Willows and my Trinity friends.
I look ahead at the year and now realize these feelilngs I've felt before. It's odd. In less than a year I will repeat what I did 4 years ago - apply for residency and then compulsively check my email for the opportunity to interview. Then cross my fingers and hope I match on that infamous day in March.
In a way after next year I will repeat this cycle one more time. Residency for 3-5 years or more depending on the specialty I choose. Then interviewing for a job.
Cyclic just like the seasons...
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